The fact that you took the time to carefully write down all of these pertinent points for the purpose of a resolution seems to me to be a cry for help. I suggest that you establish a support group to lean on when you begin to relapse. You have established a good start towards recovery, and that is admitting that you have a problem. Good luck to you. We are here for you!
Carl


1952 5-window - return to "as built" condition | 1950 3100 with a 235 and a T-5 transmission